Saturday, February 28, 2009

Live Love Conference

Let's start by saying that I always attend student functions as a chaperone thinking how am I going to minister to these students, or how is God going to use me. Every time I have walked away from any youth function I am amazied at how God spoke to me. Here is a recap of the sessions. God is awesome!

Session one: Let me start by saying that I did not hear the entire message because during the worship it was really hot and I felt some what sick so I walked out side to cool off. (weird feeling for me) As I came back in I stood in the back and listened to what Francis Chan was speaking on. Revelation 4:4-6 He was talking about the image of God and how we view God. I walked away thinking that my view that I have developed was not the picture of God that I was getting while I was listening. I had viewed a littler God, and not giving him the credit of just how big, powerful, awesome, merciful and loving he really is. I know that I will never be able to phathum just how glorious God is but I need to continue to strive to see every aspect of God and while doing this my prayer time needs to change. I need to focus more on God and praise him for who is he and less on the request. God knows what I need and has the perfect plan for my life.

Session two: This session started off by giving the illustration of how we live on the ball suspended in the universe. God designed it just so and has the power to do with it what he wants. The number of stars that are out there that can fit thousands of other stars inside that one particular one and here we are these small people living on the earth suspended in the universe. I sat an evaluated my faith in God and my trust in him. There was also this idea of allowing things to distract us from what God wanted to do with us. So, at the end of the session I really asked God to show me more of his plan and vision for my life. I am not going to understand every thing that he wants me to do, but that is ok but he knows what is best for me. I have always been one to say that I want to be with my family and close by them but this was one statement that stuck in my head, "dont stop and say good by to your friends and family just go". How many times have I said to God wait I need to do this first or I can do that because it is too far from my family. No, I pray that is not the response I give any more.

Session three: This last session Francis came out holding his little girl. I was in awe at the illustration of the relationship God wants with me by him holding his daughter. He was standing on this stage holding in his arms his 5 year old duaghter and says, "God desires to have this type of relationship with him" God wants us to crawl up in his lap and put his arms around us and just hold us. More personal God wants to wrap his arms around me and love on me. Some times I need to stop and allow him to hold me and be my daddy (Aba Father). I so loved this thought of just sitting with God in such an intimate way. I need to allow God that kind of time.

The over all weekend was amazing. I have gotten a different vision of God and how I need to allow him to have control. I need to let go of things and let God. I need to pick up my cross and follow him allowing nothing to hold me back. I need to stand every day every minute of the day with my hands open wide saying to God that this is what I have take it and use me. My challenge I surrender every thing trusting that God will guide me, take care of me, love on me and be enough for me.

If you read this I encourage you to check out the book Crazy Love. Also, learn how to live the love the God has called us to Live. Don't be a clanging symbol be sincere and allow God to use your voice to love others. This is a statement that someone said a long time ago "and sometimes use words". Our actions need to live up to what God says.I pray that I will be able to LIVE LOVE!

I could go on and on about this weekend. I hope you get something from what I have writen out. I am so very greatful for the opportunity to attend this conference, I am greatful to be a part of PLUTH and for the experiences God has allowed me to have over the years. I know ministry is not easy and I have learned that my feelings are going to be hurt, people are not always going to agree with what I say or do but if God is in it then I am good. I dont ever want to hold back on what God wants to do with my life.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Ministry Outreach

Please note that this is a local church here Jacksonville that is doing outreach to a community. I have blocked out names of the people in the community but please be in prayer over what is being done. I worked with Sam last year and I know that God is at work and I wanted to share what He is doing in the lives of this community. I hope it sets fire to what God is wanting to do in you and with you.


Saturday update time!

I want to start this week with some excerpts from a book called Soul Obsession by Nicky Cruz (it’s a great book if anyone needs a recommendation). I feel like these excerpts fully encompass what we’re praying for, hoping for, and experiencing on Saturdays (and every other day of our lives!):

He does so much more than save us; he restores us. Whatever Satan has stolen, God gives back. Whatever time we’ve lost to sin, he reclaims through love. The wounds inflicted upon us by the world are healed by his wonderful grace. This is the Jesus we worship—the Savior who died so that we can live! This is the message we bring to a world still bound by sin. This is the only testimony worth telling—the only thing that really matters! How can we not shout from the rooftops? How can we ever slip into moments of apathy after all that God has done for us? How can we not live with uninhibited passion and zeal, knowing what we know? Understanding what we understand about Satan and his lies? After experiencing the unconditional forgiveness that Jesus brings? How can any man stay silent?

…What will it take for God to finally grab hold and bring about the transformation we need—the transformation we pray for? When will we finally rise up and make a serious dent in Satan’s foothold on the world? The answer is so simple it feels strange to have to say it: we must trust in God for great miracles!

…If there is one thing we have learned through our ministry—through facing the Enemy on his own turf time and time again, day after day, week after week—it is that Satan is a coward. He is a sniveling worm who picks on the most defenseless among us, the most helpless and desperate. Like a playground bully who runs for cover as soon as a kid his size shows up, Satan retreats at the first sign of real power…Do we truly understand the power we have at our fingertips? Do we grasp the significance of the message that we bring to a lost world? Do we comprehend how easily evil can be beaten and revoked by simply opening ourselves up to the moving of the Holy Spirit among us? Do we know what God is capable of doing among us?

God is moving on McDuff Ave., and it’s in large part b/c of all of your prayers and support. Lives are being molded; lives are being changed. ________ came out with us this week (Valentine’s Day) and wrote a few things that stuck out in her mind about the day:

· As I drove up at 7 oclock, two regulars, ____ and ____ were already filling up their bags... we had sooo many sweets, bread and fruit, but it was all gone later in the morning, despite the rain!

· This morning, I was physically uncomfortable. I (along with everybody else, I guess) was wet and cold! If I hadn’t been standing out on McDuff, I would have been in bed asleep with my heated blanket. God really opened my eyes to the suffering that people in Jacksonville endure. And the fact that he is with them in all of it. Sam was telling me about the people that live in the purple house and the fact that they don’t have power… even when its freezing.

· I also saw the brokenness. There were so many smiles, so many "thank yous" and "God bless yous" but through that, I could see through to the brokenness. In the few conversations I had and introductions from Tanys, I found out things about people's lives that were shocking and sometimes heartbreaking. Some people lingered around the table after they had gathered their bags and I had a feeling it was because of the love that they were being shown. I was somewhat nervous about this because I’m not the most outgoing person in the world, but God really filled in the gaps (why do I doubt?). It was easy to love people and talk to people and welcome them and just offer them a smile and handshake and call them by name.

· A dad and his son came up near the end and got some bags of food/ fruit. The dad lived out of town and the son lived in the neighborhood. They used to live on the Southside and the son still goes to elementary school over there. He takes two city buses every morning by himself to get to school! The dad said he was going to come to church and bring the son so he can have a church to walk to on Sunday. I felt like today a lot of people were asking about the church and excited to hear that we were so close. How exciting if more people from the community start coming. Something to pray for.

· ______ giving out Valentines cards and candy to everyone who stopped at the table was another highlight. Some of the people's eyes lit up when they were handed their personalized valentine from ______. What a great way to show God's love.

Great job, _____!


As far as other details, here you go:

It was cold and wet—heavy rains on and off all morning. No fun! We decided to set up (we had so much stuff this week that we had to bring THREE cars!) under the pavilion at the little corner store (where I first set up shop months ago). It took us a good 30 minutes to get everything out and unpacked. Just then, the owner of the shop pulled up and told us to leave!! I wasn’t thrilled (that was a major understatement), but bit my tongue and began moving all our stuff up a block to the ________ house in the pouring rain. ______ kept the baked goods and care packages in her car, and we set the bread under the table covered with a tarp. The fruit stayed out and got washed the old fashioned way! Anyway, thank God that ______ showed up and saw our predicament—and went home and brought back a big tent to set over the table! It truly saved the day—we jerry-rigged the tarp to hang over 1 side of the tent to keep the rain out. By this time lots of people had showed up and had been helping us move the food from the original location, etc. It was awesome to see everyone helping! We heard a lot of people say “I didn’t think you all would be out here today!” and “You all are out here THIS week? In the rain?!?” Ha—it was classic.

To make my usual long-story-short, it was a very powerful day. We had more food than we’ve ever had, and gave every last bit away. I thought it was going to be a slow day, but it turned out (as usual!) to be exactly the right amount of food we needed.

Here are a few highlights:

--Valentine’s Day presents—we received a lot of V-tine’s Day donations and ______ spent a lot of time buying and putting together goody bags—chocolates, V-tine’s cards, etc. Every person that walked up to the table had to go wait by her car as she asked them their names (spelling isn’t easy in the ‘hood!) and filled out individual Valentine cards for everyone. It had to be the highlight of the day—people LOVED the cards/goodies—even the men! I think that it really touched a lot of people’s hearts, and ______ was awesome out there. What an awesome idea—great job, babe! The 3 little kids that always show up were especially blown away (side note: the smallest kid—his name sounds like ____ but spelled like _____. Go figure!). ______ gave out 60 individual cards to people—more people stopped by the table, but they were either too quick to leave or we had run out of cards. What a treat! J

--A coworker’s husband contacted me this week—he works for a big chips manufacturer and every week they have 2-3 big boxes of full-sized bags of chips/popcorn/pretzels, etc. It was great—people really liked getting a bag of chips with their sweets! He thinks they’ll be able to donate the chips every week from here on out. Score!

--Baked goods—once again, the homemade baked goods ruled. ______ drove by to drop off 60 fresh-baked cookies: chocolate dipped snickerdoodle, “Cowboy Cookies” (don’t ask), etc. Someone also made cupcakes with little candy V-tine hearts on them, _____ brought brownies, and _____ and ______ dropped off some brownies and chocolate-covered popcorn balls. Is your mouth watering yet? Seriously, these folks really made a lot of people’s days out there with their treats!! Talk about a spread! Thank you who baked/donated $ for this week!! Even in the rain, the crowds flocked around the table!!!

--My buddy _____ (tear-drop tattoo guy) and his girlfriend stopped by—this kid is so awesome! He looks like the roughest kid you could imagine, but when he comes up to the table he is all smiles and so soft-spoken. He told us that he had won that basketball tournament I dropped him off at last week (it must have been those last-second tips I gave him J ). Cool! They stayed and talked for awhile. I really like _______—something about the way the softest heart shines through the toughest exterior. Our God reigns!

--____ (teenage kid who lives at _______ house—his mom is in jail, remember?) came by and stayed the majority of the morning. He is such nice kid and is so hungry for the love given to him at the table—you can tell how appealing it is to him. Anyway, we picked up him and David again for church the next day (David was really sick, but wanted to come anyway). They came to the first service and really loved the worship. The service was especially powerful Sunday, and both boys came down to receive prayer. _______ had to take them home after the 1st service (I was playing in the band so couldn’t). When they got home, ______ asked if he could come back for the 2nd service!! Awesome! He came up to me right before we started playing and said, “I just had to hear you play again. There’s something powerful going on here today.” He sat alone in the balcony directly above the band to our left. Several times I looked up and saw him with eyes closed, hands stretched out before him worshipping. Statements that _______ later made on Sunday:

“Today was so powerful. I knew that the Lord was here.”
“I love this church.”
“I think I’m going to start sitting by myself during worship…I liked it better b/c I didn’t have to worry about others looking at me if I raised my hands.”
God is working on this kid’s heart, people!

--_______ has also been coming to church the past 2 weeks and seems to really like it (especially the Starbucks coffee!).

--the ______ (the family in the purple house)—bad news: mom has been sick for months and months and it got so bad this week she had to be lifted to Gainesville (over an hour away from here). One of the ladies who used to live with her called me to tell me that they think it’s lung cancer. The kids are staying at their dad’s house and (from what I understand) visiting mom when they can. The prognosis is grave for her. It’s terrible, but here’s what I know: Our God is an awesome God, and He is the Great Physician. He is able to laugh at death b/c He’s already conquered it. Lord, you are so good—even when things look bad, we know that you are good. We ask in boldness that you intervene with ______—interrupt her health status and bring your healing!!! You are above ALL things, and tell that cancer to leave her body in the Name of Jesus—it has no place there. We also ask that this would be her impetus and the earth-rattling event that gets her attention—and focus it on YOU.

Ministry Needs:

--Food (especially homemade baked goods). We’ve got the Publix; we’ve got the fruit donations; but EVERY week it’s the homemade stuff that has saved us and given us EXACTLY the right amount of food! Please contact us if you feel led to bake!

-- Care package items—we need everything right now—toothbrushes, toothpaste, mouthwash, deodorant (men’s and women’s), laundry detergent, soap, hand sanitizer, razors, lotion, shampoo/conditioner, etc—if you think a family can use it, they probably can! IF YOU CAN DONATE IT, WE’LL TAKE IT.

--Bottled water—we’re down to a few cases. I think Walgreens has 24 packs on sale for $3 this week…

--BIKE WEEK—we’re having “Bike Week” on Saturday—if you have ANYTHING bike-related to donate, we will take it (tubes, chains, lube, WHOLE BIKES!, etc.). So far we have somewhere between 7-9 bikes to give away to those who need them, and a few guys volunteering time to work on people’s bikes as they arrive. It’s going to be a HUGE day—lots of people have been asking about Bike Day and are telling their friends to bring their bikes. Also, if you have any know-how with bike repair, we’d LOVE to have you come out to help. Please contact A.D. Simone (alan@owenservices.com) or Danny Domingo (emandmad@vzw.blackberry.net) before Saturday so they have an idea who is coming or what parts are being donated. They are spearheading this shindig and are the guys to talk shop to about bikes.

--Prayer—again, saving the most important for last. Again to quote from that book from the beginning of this email (I hope I don’t get sued for plagiarism!), here’s a prayer that I am pleading over McDuff—please join with me:

Lord, you know the death and bondage that are so evident in those neighborhoods—the total disregard for life, the addictions, the numbness and lifelessness, and the slavery that Satan has yoked those people with... “and we will no longer tolerate it. In the name of Jesus, we bind Satan here and now. We demand that Satan have no more power in this neighborhood…and no more influence in this community. We will no longer tolerate evil in this neighborhood!” We don’t want to get into an argument with the Enemy; we want you to DRIVE HIM OUT with his tail between his legs!

Colossians 2:10:

“…you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority.”

Philippians 2:10-11:

“…that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.”

There is a battle being fought before our very eyes. Pray for the victory!

Sam

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Sunday Morinng Small Group Lesson

Sunday morning I was a little nervous about the lesson I was going to teach because I felt it was lacking in some areas. The title of the lesson was "Training to be Godly" and the passage was from I Timothy 4:7-10. I went back to the basics with spiritual training. I asked the girls what the first thing they did when they felt God calling them, we prayed. Then what did we do, we got into God's word. So, I talked to them about their prayer life and reference Matthew 6:5-13. I discussed a little about my QT over the last month and all the God was dealing with me about. I wanted the girls to see that prayer is such a vital part of our Christian life. The way we build relationships is by communicating and the way we are going to grow in our relationship with God is to communicate with him and trust him. The next part was talking to them about reading the word. I have had several girls tell me that they struggle with QT. At the end of the lesson I gave the girls a challenge and that was to pray for 21 days and get into the word. I also ended the time with prayer but in a different way. We usually take prayer requests and one of the adults pray but this time I wanted to give the girls a chance to pray. So I told them that we would take the last minutes of the time and pray, if led to pray out loud do so, if not silence is ok. Several of the girls prayed out loud.

Funny misunderstanding story. I had told the girls that God was telling me that I need to be more willing to do what he has called me to do. So I made the statement that where ever God sent me I would trust him to take me. A parent came up to me Sunday night at church and me that they were going to miss me and that her daughter was going to miss me. I was taken off guard. I did however laugh and said maybe God showed them that he was calling me to go somewhere but hadn't told me yet. LOL Not going any where yet, but you knows; only God does.

A challenge for you. QT and prayer time not right or not quality. Start in Psalms and read read. While reading ask God to show you something about yourself in these two areas. Then make a specific time in the day to pray.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Week Three of Fasting

Well, I have started my last week of the fast and I must say that God is truly powerful than I have ever given him credit for. For anyone who has ever fasted knows that it is not an easy task, especially when you are me. Over the last two weeks I feel like I have had to explain myself to so many people as to why I can't eat certain things and it has shocked me to see so many people confused as to why I was doing this. I stopped explaining because it became more stressful for me. In conversation with a family member, they told me to end it early because of a family dinner we were having to celebrate birthdays, I thought about it but I couldn't. I knew that God had me doing this for a reason and I couldn't bring myself to end it early. I have seen God in a different light in the last two weeks, I have worshipped differently and more. My QT has been a huge blessing in that he has shown me things I had never seen or understood before. The two things that I have been specifically praying for I know God is working through them and I trust him more.

In this last week, I pray that God would reveal things to me and draw me closer to him. I want to be in full surrender to him never looking back. I want to trust him with every area of my life and know that his will is being done. I want people to look at me and say "she is in love with Jesus!" I want to share the gospel without hesitation. I want to always be content with what God is dong in my life, only striving to be more conformed to Jesus.

Last two posts

Ok, if you were wondering why the last two posts are back dated it is because I was changing to wordpress but I decided to keep using blogspot because I was more familiar with it. I have dated them so that you wont me too confused. Thanks for taking the time to read.

History Lesson 1/21

Ok, so I am not a history person. Our Wednesday night service was pretty much a history lesson and I will admit that at first I was somewhat bored. At the end of the message God really spoke to me about making a difference. Here is what God said to me.
Jenny, it doesn't matter what you think you are able to do, I know what I want you to do. Last April I gave you a vision and I am pruning you for it to become a reality. All I want you to do is trust me and allow me to find the right time for all to take place.
I must say I was amazed at how David's history lesson showed me how God wants to use me to make a difference in the lives of women.
Here is a list of the people that David spoke of on Wednesday night:
Ronald Reagan, Martin Luther King, Rosa Parks, Lincoln and I know I am missing someone but these are the ones that stood out to me. Look at the difference that these people made. Once freed slaves, one started the movement of equal rights while another came along to run with it in another way, one helped destroy the Berlin wall. I am sure there are many more people out there that have made a difference in the world but this last one made the biggest difference of all. Jesus christ, a sinless man living in this world facing the temptation we face but never fell to them, gave his life for you and me so that we may live in Heaven one day with him.
Find out how you can make a difference. How does God want to use you? Proverbs 3:4-5 and Phil 4:13 have become a big part of my life because every day I have to trust him and I have to believe that I can do all things through Christ. I just have to allow him to do them.

Week One of Fasting 1/19-1/26

For several months now I really felt like God was telling me to fast. For the month of December I did a fast from music; I did not listen to music in the car, in my house or while I was outside. This was pretty hard but I was really able to focus on God and really prayed before the day began. I was amazed at how God moved and showed up.
Since then I had really felt like God was telling of I want something bigger, I want more of a sacrifice from you. So, I prayed I felt like a full Daniel fast was what God was asking me to do. Last Monday, January 19 was my first day. I went to the store bought lots of veggies and fruit and I began my fast. I thought it was going to be hard but so far it has not. I am seeing that if I submit to what God wants me to do he will carry me through to the end. I have complete one week and I am really seeking what God is wanting to do with my life. My QT has been a little easier, I am thinking more throughout the day about God and how he can use me at work with my students as well as in many other areas.
There are two things that I have been praying about while I am fasting I am seeing God move in one of the areas. God is awesome! I am learning not to question but to trust and this is a hard concept for me, I have always questioned just about everything. Nothing wrong with that but there comes a time when we have to stop questioning and start trusting.
I have thought about ending my fast early but I really feel that God has brought me this far I should trust that he will continue to help me to the end. I am not looking back only looking forward. Do you have something that God is telling you to do but you are not sure how you are going to do it. Just trust him and he will see you through it. It is amazing to see what God can accomplish.